Decorative art. Illustrative art. Non-challenging art. I took some time away to paint a new picture but trying really hard to make something perfect is when we're most likely to fail. I don't really hate the paintings I end up being responsible for but the only way to express my feeling about them is by trying to imagine attempting to write a book I'd really enjoy reading and knowing I'm incapable of doing so. For example here's a brief list of favorite books:
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain
Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte
Hamlet by William Shakespeare
The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald
Satanic Verses by Salman Rushdie
Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood
Ulysses by James Joyce
The Quiet American by Graham Greene
The Aleph by Jorge Luis Borges
The Brothers Karamazov by Fyodor Dostoevsky
The Magus by John Fowles
It's a short list of classic fiction but I read all sorts of things and I set the bar pretty high for what's acceptable. Yet if I sat down to write a novel I know I'd come up with something utterly dismal. I shudder at the thought of writing a romance novel.
I'm sure there are lots of people sharing this frustrating condition with me. I love listening to music but I can't play and I know there are lots of musicians who wish they could play as well as.. somebody else. Everyone stretches for something always out of reach and that's what makes humanity beautiful. While engrossed in some pursuit beyond our daily lives we at least get to savor the magic of the creative spirit and, if we're lucky, every so often there may be a hint of transcendance in the air.
So here's the painting called 'Dakini Spring'. It's really much more complicated than it looks - as are we all.